Every morning I wake up and I know exactly what I want to do with my life, and as the day goes on you have to face the facts of reality. For me its school, getting all my work done, and just trying to make it through the day till I can sleep again. Pretty much the normal life of any teen in high school.
But, every morning I wake up and I know exactly what I want to do. And I think about it and then I
realize, what if I never am able to accomplish my dreams?
I don't want to be an old woman looking back on a life full of regrets and could haves. I want to look back on a life where I made my dreams come true and helped others with theirs on the way.
Every day I wake up and think why am I so scared to actually chase after what I want?
Why am I so nervous about putting myself out there and actually preparing myself for the life that I really hope to have?
I don't know why. Maybe I'm scared that I wont be good enough or that I wont succeed, but I will also never know if I don't take a chance.
Every opportunity I have to prove myself I end up chickening out, and saying "Oh, I can just try again next year." But that's 365 days away. There is soo much I could achieve if I actually just tried.
I know I can't be the only person who feels like this, but sometimes I sure do.
As usual at the beggining of every year everybody makes a bunch of new years resolutions that they forget by the next week. That will most likely be me this year but I do have hope that I can succeed!
So! Drumroll please...
My new years resolutions!
1) First and foremost I need to lose the 20 pounds that I gained in 2013, and if that ends up being too much weight to lose then at least being completely happy with my body. And my definition of being happy with my body doesn't mean weighing 90 lbs and being as thin as a stick. While that may be healthy for some people it isn't healthy or realistic for me. Being healthy means eating well, sleeping enough, exercising, and drinking plenty of water.
2) Secondly, my grades really haven't been up to par recently and that needs to change or I will suffer from it in the long run, especially when I am applying to colleges.
I think giving my self two main goals/resolutions is enough. Usually I give my self so much that I cant possibly do it all and then I end up forgetting them.